ok ive mostly spent today working on this so this might be a short entry... agaaiannn.....
ive actually even... forgoten what to talk about!!! gee....
its felt good to do work again, im like actually tired now, and feel a little responsible
i even started to play frozen soul in public servers, i dont speak, but its kind of helping??? idk
didnt really do much though, almost talked to some guy but i was just namecalling them for being stupid.. "how do i become mafiso"?? rlly??
i was bored, so i wanted to go super far into negative studs, but this girl had like -A BILLION. I CANT BEAT THAT
anywaays i think im going to try to make some friends ingame tommorow, or if im up to it talk to my brother, i just would reallt rather not be lonely as although isolation is quite pleasant ive had many days sadder than before wishing for someone to atleast say hi to
my parents are very errr rrude people, often times i have to just sit there and listen to them scream, im honestly a little glad i got this sickeness so that they never try to get near me again
i know im sick, but i rea;lly just want to move in with my brother, i get hes younger and all but ican atleast try to help with rent, and i mean he still loves me right??
also, did you notice the cool song and cursor effect!!! it took me a little bit (especiall of javascript) to get it down buti eventually did... isnt it cool...
someone i remember asked what i looked like, i dont mean to be rude, but i kind of dont have a mirror so i dont really knwow, okayu well i do, its just, whenever my screens on a black window.. like this one!!!
i see whats pretty expected, some stubble spanning my face (i really need to shave the neck area ew), some decently long mostly unkept hair, and thick glasses from staying in this room all the time (theyre pretty outdated, i need new ones i think)
im honestly small, just soup noodles and water isnt too much to gain weight off, so i probably weigh like 130 or somethig at 5'11, not half bad!!
but, alot of stuff about me is kind of ugly, im not sure why people found me cute or stuff, like my mouths too big, causing my jaw to droop more than others, my teeth are unalligned as hell, was never allowed to get braces, my eyes are too blueish gray so they look creepy, and glasses dont fit my face structure, i dont like how i look
maybe ill uuuhh taalk about past relationships alot later, i can tell you though one was just kind of a random one to know what im doing, one was a little sad but i recovered, and the last i dont think i have since, they fucked me over really badly and dont even care
ill think of thigns to talk about tommorow, sorry this log was kind of boring and lame, well i gues its a log so it doesnt really matter but thats OK
